I hold him tightly while I rock him.I exhale slowly and release all of the tension in me, all of the love in me; it filters through him.

I hold him and he tucks into me, into the place from which he grew.

He will call me one Thanksgiving and tell me that he is going to her house instead. I will force myself to be happy for him. I will force myself to say, “Wonderful, Dear. Have a happy Thanksgiving.”

I will hang up the phone.Remove featured image I will rock myself. I will tuck my knees tightly into his spot.

I will remember how I exhaled all of my love into him so that he could love her.